december 30

I melt
away
into oblivion

I am not
the enemy

I am not
the anything

xoxo,
gee

december 28

goodnight,
my dear one

xoxo,
gee

december 26

"I'm changing my name to numchuck bitch."
(~ kurt cobain ~)

xoxo,
gee

december 25

thank you, my love, for this extra-special christmas

thank you
for your sweetness,
for your generosity,
for your companionship,
for your humor,
for your playfulness...

thank you
for the thoughtful, beautiful gifts...

thank you
for being
the most precious gift
of all

xoxo,
gee

december 21

baby,
I
am
in
love
with
you

(and candy canes)

xoxo,
gee

december 20

my
favorite
kind
of comfort food

yeah, another one
for the g-list...

(*surprise, surprise*)

yummm!

xoxo,
gee

december 19

this thing... this thing has a way
of having it's way
with me

so often,
it leaves me weak
and frustrated
and in pain
and ready to cry "mercy"

it sits on top of me,
pins me to the ground
and grins
like the evil gremlin
that it is

it spits in my face
when I cry...
it kicks me in the gut
when I can't catch
my breath

this time, though,
when it reared it's ugly head again,
I managed
to grab it by the horns,
saying "no...
not so fast, motherfucker."

I took your advice, stu.

thanks to you,
there's a tongue-less gremlin
sitting helplessly
in the corner of my room

(*smile*)

xoxo,
gee

december 18

tonight,
as you were
doing the things you do,
I was
watching you...
I was
listening to you...
I was
laughing with you...
and
I was
glowing
in the
light of you

xoxo,
gee

december 17

I love the way you sound...
saying my name,
feeling you
hard
against
my back

xoxo,
gee

december 16

sometimes,
when I am with you
I forget about the struggle, the pain, the heartache,
the challenge...

I don't see the obstacles
or hear the voice of reason and caution and warning...

I don't think about that which
typically begs for my undivided attention...

sometimes,
when I am with you,
I am simply
"with you"

in this moment,
I am just a girl
with flowers
in my hair
and suddenly
all is right
with the world

xoxo,
gee

december 14

going nowhere

going somewhere

going anywhere

sometimes,
I honestly can't tell
the difference

xoxo,
gee

december 13

my goddess, my god...

please...
forgive me
for being such a
stupid girl

xoxo,
gee

december 12

come

be with me

wrap yourself
around
the center of me
and
dream

" If only you believe
like I believe, baby,
like I believe,
we'd get by.

if only you believed in miracles,
so would I..."

(lyrics to "miracles", jefferson starship)

xoxo,
gee

december 10

tired, fed-up, wasted...
sarcastic, jaded,
and fading...

fast

try to relax,
they tell me

no shit,
I say

xoxo,
gee

december 08

stripes. the funkier, the better.

yeah, I ♥ stripes.

(~smile~)

xoxo,
gee